I’ve been really struggling with writing this blog for some time now and have allowed it to become a barrier to my work. I have lots of drafts of half- written posts, uncompleted for a variety of reasons.
I have concerns over the content and whether or not it should be in the public domain (something I have discussed briefly in a previous post).
To some extent this is because of the ( possible) sensitivity of some of the content. I understand that some of this can be overcome through Password protection and Private posting so I have been re- considering ( long and hard) which, if either, is most appropriate for some of these posts.
Some of the issues are laid out here:
- My community – based work is often with vulnerable people: the elderly, people with dementia and their carers and children, sometimes with disabilities.
Issues of confidentiality and safe-guarding are paramount when working in this area and the protocol is different for every organisation, so it seems and changes frequently.
I don’t always , at the moment, feel it is appropriate to display images of the groups I have been working with on this Blog.
Some of the meetings I attend as a community-based artist are with local district councils and other similar organisations and I do not feel it appropriate to discuss the policy content involved within these meetings on the blog.
- My independent practice has involved some visits to public footpaths around used and disused military -sites.
At the moment I am still unclear as to what images should be distributed on-line.
I’m not clear about what my work is ‘doing’ and don’t want to post yet until things are more resolved.
I appreciate that writing the blog can help with this but sometimes I get so involved with the blog I get distracted from the work and would prefer to work through things in a different written medium. ( Diagram/ poster/ sketchbook/laying stuff out – a more ‘physical’ way)
- I’ve also been finding that, instead of feeling inspired by the work of colleagues on the course, I have been feeling overwhelmed in a variety of ways, both in terms of quantity and content.
This has added to an unusual but pervasive lack of confidence. I’m investigating the reasons for this! I know it’s about me not them!
I must keep reminding myself that ‘It’s not a competition! or a race!’ I’ve not encountered this feeling before…previously just been happy to ‘do my own thing’…..
- Logging on to write has become unpleasant!
Having had a chat with Jon S, a colleague, about the thought process involved in writing with pete and paper and concentrating by removing ‘self’ from a digital environment, I’ve realised that one way to overcome this is to write in the old fashioned way in my sketch/notebook and then re-write in the Blog what is appropriate.
I have MacSpeech software so this shouldn’t be too laborious – and may help me to organise my thoughts more quickly.
- Screens seem to bugger my eyes up and when my eyes are tired writing the blog is difficult. This increases my frustration and unusual but present negativity.
Another reason for the transcript idea!
And I must remind myself that, in the end…
This MA is about The Work not the Blog.